A Nameless Clout..!

It was cold, the pillow has slipped from beneath my head again.. everything was fuzzy and I couldn’t recognize much of what happened.. all I remember is that I was talking to someone.. I was mumbling about the contemporary pose that shaping my life at the moment.. I reckon desiring to be in entirely different circumstances somewhere very far away from my current plunk.. with different people, social life and affairs.. in “another dimension” I said.. another galaxy perhaps, light years away from where I am.. you know, sometimes, when you wish for things to have gone in a totally different track that it has gone..

nonetheless, there I was.. bored and numb of almost everything.. feeling sleepy.. I hung up and I went to sleep.. two and half an hour later I woke up rigorously frightened..!! breathing heavily.. nothing seemed to make sense when I opened my eyes, although everything was at the exact place where I last saw it.. except that pillow, of course.. But, I was totally hyper and vigilant.. I haven’t seen any dreams or nightmares.. nothing… I just felt like I had been somewhere, in a very high speed and came back to my very position without knowing where I went.. or how.. I just felt something wasn’t right.. I never felt this ever before.. I cannot describe it.. and how can you describe something that’s so vague.. my vision was hazy yet I can see.. but could not see what happened.. it’s so awkward.. undistinguishable.. a nameless state of unconsciousness that came over me.. I looked at the clock beside the bed, it was 4:30 AM.. and I couldn’t go back to sleep again..

Was it magic..? was I possessed by a dark spirit..? a demon perhaps..? I couldn’t tell.. all I remember is saying every prayer I know, trying to pace my Inhalation and barely managed to regulate a few gulps of air out of my mouth..

Whatever it was, it was extraordinary.. was it a self-fulfillment out of my desperate deep desire for it to happen..? did I really went to another dimension..? is that even possible..?

What if being in another dimension is possible.. can we be in a position to realize what’s happening to us there..? does it haunt us back.. in some kind of déjà vu moments..?

I don’t know why I’m writing this.. I just felt like saying it out loud.. maybe I should stick to my boring scientific, social or philosophical writings.. other than sharing these kinds of freaky thoughts..!!

Comments

Shahoodeh said…
Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Chaneh hal accounts mal those people who claim to have been kidnapped by Aliens.... Besmellahhh!!!

I like this entry more than ur others though...its more personal
24 September 2008 at 08:34
The Gray said…
-_-

yeah.. I'm not sure about aliens, but UFOs do exist..!
24 September 2008 at 08:58
Wild Adapter said…
oh wow, look at you!

looove it! attempting to explain the extraordinary. we get moments like that, when you recognize their weirdness, give it a voice.. a name through words, you have honored it.

Honored and accepted the extraordinary.

thats why i love this post so much :)
25 September 2008 at 23:14
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